Stop. && Smile.

We often forget the great things in life.
Like, every other day. Well for me at least[:
I have moments when I forget all the good things in my life.
We forget the little things.


like..
a smile.
someone who makes you laugh.
spending time with a new friend.
listening to christmas music in november(me and my mom).(:
venting to someone you've missed.[:
and there is SO much more.

We get all caught up in pointless drama, that we forget to smile.

a smile is a very powerful thing.
it can make someones day 100000000000 times better.

Smile for all the great things in life.
Forget the bad.


have a great day everyone(:

with a smile,
karaboorhodes :D

p.s. what's you're favorite christmas song??(:

Sometimes,When,Words.

Sometimes I wish I was able to cry, let it all out.
Something always keeps me from crying.
I don't know if it's because I'm strong or just really good at faking.
My heart aches for...I honestly don't know what I want.


I think I know what I want when he is holding my hand.
When his arm's around me. When I see his smile.
When I miss him so much I hunch over in pain. When I don't
want to speak to anyone at all. When I think of what could happen.
When I think everything can work out. I'm torn.
Then I take a step back, and I don't know.

</3


I know I'm making this into way too big of a deal, then it really is.
But how can I push all these feelings aside? They are overwhelming.
I can't stop thinking about them even for a second.
My mind is full of words that were said, what word I wish I could have said.
The words I want to hear. The words I regret.
I don't know what to do.


Will I end up happy?

-Kara

Uh.

I'm not sure how I feel about this.
This all seems too familiar.
I should just quit while i'm ahead.
It'll end up the same way anyway.
Why would someone go from her..to me?
She's got brains and beauty.
I've got sarcasm and not beauty.
I know it's just starting out.
But I have a feeling it will end the same way as last time.


but cut out the last part.


i just like this picture. not sure why.








Some day everything will make sense.


-boo(:

p.s. happy halloween!(:
p.s.s. it's getting better[:

Broken.Slipping.& Done.

but scratch the sorry, he doesn't care.

I am done.

I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself.

By looking at the past I'm not looking at what I have now.

I don't want to be friends with people who don't care about me.

let's see how long my "be happy, live life to the fullest" feeling lasts shall we?[:

with love,

Kara Diane Rhodes[:

p.s. no body likes a player, you are getting what you deserve. just wait, you'll know what i'm talking about soon enough.

(: 

Eye contact? It would be nice.

that's all i ask.

I know we won't be the same.

If you care..please.

At least answer me when i ask you a question.

or tell me to stop. 

i feel alone.

like no one is there.

the people i have talked to think i'm stupid.

i want to be happy again.

p.s.super awkward picture right?

-boo

p.s. so many people told me you care..show me? 

April

Everyone needs a Connor.

He might be my favorite person ever.

A Connor is someone who can make you laugh when you feel like crying.

He is super awkward, but I love him anyway.[: 

('d')<he made that up. "kick in the face". Hahaha(:

Ever feel like you don't fit in..anywhere?

I kind of feel like that right now.

I hate crying. It's a sign of weakness.

I refuse to be weak anymore.

I wish i could run away from it all.

The "ball" is in his court.

I can't do anything about it.

-kara

p.s. what happens when all hope is lost..?

Contradict much?

I am terribly sorry.
My last two post were a bit of a contradiction.
Sorry. Let's get back to happy[:














Dr. Seuss. Genius.

have a fantastic day
be happy
and ignore my last post[:

with love,
Caribou

p.s. i feel like i'm writing to thin air.
is anyone out there?

Remember how i felt empty for so long? 

That emptiness is coming back.

I hate it. 

All I want is to be happy, is that too much to ask?

I've always been good at hiding how I feel (it's one of my many talents).

But hiding how you feel isn't a good thing.I've learned that this year.

All that hidden anger and sadness, builds up over time.

It builds a wall, keeps the old feelings in ,and keeps new ones from coming in.

I want the wall gone.

I don't know what to do.

The emptiness is creeping into my heart.

It'll take over me soon.

The hole is taking over.

I want the pain to stop.

The thing is, is that I don't know what the pain is coming from.

I just hurt.

Help? 

I don't ask this often, but pray for me? Please.

i'd cry..but the wall keeps tears from my eyes.

Does any one truly care anymore? 

-Kara

If you want me in your life, please start acting like it. you have no idea how close i am to giving up.

this is from her.

i had to steal it.

It's only Monday.

Kill.Me.Now.

yes.

you did promise.

i need to find this guy.

i need a life, real bad.

Maybe i'll start running.

I need to be healthier and skinnier. anyway.

have a great night.

love,

Kara

The Jacket.

Saturday.

I got a new jacket, it's fake leather.

It might be the best thing of my life.

I worked at Byu concessions.

I met a new boy.

He is super attractive.and sweet.

I got to watch the Byu game from my stand,

we could see the scoreboard *win*. 

I saw very attractive Byu football players after the game.

They are so tall..and muscular[: and so cute in their blue jumpsuits(:

He text me. It was nice..

My mommy got a calling in church today, a mia maid adviser.

I'm a mia maid.

Let's see how well it goes...haha

I had to give a mini talk in church..epic fail.

I hate hair.

so I've decided to keep it in a bun for the rest of my life.

well until it is longer...[:

Saturday was a good day.

i'm gonna live happily ever after(: 

but a Cinderella story would be nice...(:

pretty much.

he's out there...i just have to wait!(: 

have a great day[:

with lots of pretend hugs and kisses,

Caribou.

p.s.if you have a Cinderella story, please tell me the story(:

Dreams.

I never dream.
When i do, it's either really weird.
Or i miss someone terribly. 
Now I've missed someone terribly a total of twice in my life
(well that i remember).
Once, when my best friend Jackson left for a week during summer.
I had a dream that he cam home, luckily it was just one day till i got to see him(:


The second time just happened...  
and i'm writing about it before i loose the memory.
We.talked.
We. hugged.
I said sorry.
You forgave me.
The End.Stupid doorbell..
I have never had a dream this real in my life.
I could feel the hug, i could feel the sincerity in his voice. 


I know, you have already forgiven me. 
You know how hard a time i have believing things. 
I know you simply, don't care anymore.
I wish you did. 


On a happier note.
A great friend today said "Kara you didn't text me back".
HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME THIS WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR.
Oh that boy...He was the first "holder of my hands". In the weirdest way possible. HAHA<sorry(:


Also, a very "popular" attractive boy said my hair looks good brown. win.
I was shocked he even knew my name.


Mattie sent me a video of her playing a song on the harp.
It was beautiful.
Thanks love. 


A kid in my physics class(that i sit next to), told me that he thought i was a senior.
Bahahahhahaha. It was awesome. He is a junior. Sadly, he's not cute.


I GOT YUMMY TASTING LIP GLOSS. 
It tastes like those suckers with the green..and the caramel on it!?Ah[: i love it. Does anyone want a taste?Obviously boys.Cute ones maybe?
this is it(:


I got a 91/100 on my geometry test i thought i failed.
awesome. 


did i ever tell ya'll that i am Cinderella[:


Well, have a great friday everyone[:
I hope it's full of adventures.
I hope mine is too!


with lots of love,
kara diane rhodes




p.s. in that dream, did i mention that he was wearing a leather jacket? huh..random..but oh so attractive. 
boys, go get yourself a leather jacket, the are sexy. 
<3