Uh.

I'm not sure how I feel about this.
This all seems too familiar.
I should just quit while i'm ahead.
It'll end up the same way anyway.
Why would someone go from her..to me?
She's got brains and beauty.
I've got sarcasm and not beauty.
I know it's just starting out.
But I have a feeling it will end the same way as last time.


but cut out the last part.


i just like this picture. not sure why.








Some day everything will make sense.


-boo(:

p.s. happy halloween!(:
p.s.s. it's getting better[:

Confused.

I am so confused, it's ridiculous. 
Why do you tell them one thing and me another?
Who are you lying to? Me? Or them?


MINI NOTES:
Ginger(:
I love you doll.
Don't forget it.
Talking today was kind of like old times ya?
Good. Right?

"Babies"
I hope you're doing alright.
I'm sorry about all the crap you're going through.
It sucks, if you ever need some one to talk to. i'm here.
I love you(:


Babe-ly
Thanks for being a wonderful friend.
I think you made the right choice today.
I would have done the same thing.
I hope you have a better day tomorrow[:
I love you!(:

Jar of Hearts- Christina Perri:

i know, I can't take one more step towards you

                                          'Cause  all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

                                                 I learned to live, half a life
                                            And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half a life

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

    Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

                                                    And tearing love apart

  You're gonna catch a cold

   From the ice inside your soul

   So don't come back for me

      Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are? 

with love,

Kara[:

p.s.

p.s. i <3 sarah and allie(: 

6 month journey.

She is so naive.
Stop being subtle. 
I want to procure his friendship back.
I am very ineptly.
He evades my eyes, everyday.
Someone should reprimand my heart. 
I like "big" words.
and putting them into stupid sentences.




in 6 months, i hope to be happy. 


مجھے تم یاد آتی ہے.
ہم دوستوں کے دوبارہ کر سکتے ہیں؟
مجھے بہت افسوس ہے.
کیا آپ کے پاس بالکل پرواہ ہے؟
کیا ہم اس سے باہر بات کر سکتے ہیں؟
مہربانی کر کے.






with love,
Kara Diane Rhodes[:


p.s.what makes you happy?
i'd sure like to hear it. 

Eye contact? It would be nice.

that's all i ask.

I know we won't be the same.

If you care..please.

At least answer me when i ask you a question.

or tell me to stop. 

i feel alone.

like no one is there.

the people i have talked to think i'm stupid.

i want to be happy again.

p.s.super awkward picture right?

-boo

p.s. so many people told me you care..show me? 

April

Everyone needs a Connor.

He might be my favorite person ever.

A Connor is someone who can make you laugh when you feel like crying.

He is super awkward, but I love him anyway.[: 

('d')<he made that up. "kick in the face". Hahaha(:

Ever feel like you don't fit in..anywhere?

I kind of feel like that right now.

I hate crying. It's a sign of weakness.

I refuse to be weak anymore.

I wish i could run away from it all.

The "ball" is in his court.

I can't do anything about it.

-kara

p.s. what happens when all hope is lost..?

She cried.

Real tears.

-kara

Contradict much?

I am terribly sorry.
My last two post were a bit of a contradiction.
Sorry. Let's get back to happy[:














Dr. Seuss. Genius.

have a fantastic day
be happy
and ignore my last post[:

with love,
Caribou

p.s. i feel like i'm writing to thin air.
is anyone out there?

Dreams.

I never dream.
When i do, it's either really weird.
Or i miss someone terribly. 
Now I've missed someone terribly a total of twice in my life
(well that i remember).
Once, when my best friend Jackson left for a week during summer.
I had a dream that he cam home, luckily it was just one day till i got to see him(:


The second time just happened...  
and i'm writing about it before i loose the memory.
We.talked.
We. hugged.
I said sorry.
You forgave me.
The End.Stupid doorbell..
I have never had a dream this real in my life.
I could feel the hug, i could feel the sincerity in his voice. 


I know, you have already forgiven me. 
You know how hard a time i have believing things. 
I know you simply, don't care anymore.
I wish you did. 


On a happier note.
A great friend today said "Kara you didn't text me back".
HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME THIS WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR.
Oh that boy...He was the first "holder of my hands". In the weirdest way possible. HAHA<sorry(:


Also, a very "popular" attractive boy said my hair looks good brown. win.
I was shocked he even knew my name.


Mattie sent me a video of her playing a song on the harp.
It was beautiful.
Thanks love. 


A kid in my physics class(that i sit next to), told me that he thought i was a senior.
Bahahahhahaha. It was awesome. He is a junior. Sadly, he's not cute.


I GOT YUMMY TASTING LIP GLOSS. 
It tastes like those suckers with the green..and the caramel on it!?Ah[: i love it. Does anyone want a taste?Obviously boys.Cute ones maybe?
this is it(:


I got a 91/100 on my geometry test i thought i failed.
awesome. 


did i ever tell ya'll that i am Cinderella[:


Well, have a great friday everyone[:
I hope it's full of adventures.
I hope mine is too!


with lots of love,
kara diane rhodes




p.s. in that dream, did i mention that he was wearing a leather jacket? huh..random..but oh so attractive. 
boys, go get yourself a leather jacket, the are sexy. 
<3

Two year old.

Alright.
I'm so sick of being so sad.
It's so lame.
Happy girls are pretty girls..right?[:
I got a lot of complements on my hair today.Even boys. *gasp*.
That made me happy.
My Mattie left me cranberries for lunch, also made me happy.
My Jo told me i was cute, made me happy too.
My Sarah ran and hugged me today, guess what? It made me happy.

yep. i like this a lot[:

awe. i need to be happy.

when you wish upon a star...makes no difference who you are.


 

huh something to think about..?






Let's all be happy now.
Okay?[:
have a marvelous day!
with love,
Caribou Rhodes.