Confused.

I am so confused, it's ridiculous. 
Why do you tell them one thing and me another?
Who are you lying to? Me? Or them?


MINI NOTES:
Ginger(:
I love you doll.
Don't forget it.
Talking today was kind of like old times ya?
Good. Right?

"Babies"
I hope you're doing alright.
I'm sorry about all the crap you're going through.
It sucks, if you ever need some one to talk to. i'm here.
I love you(:


Babe-ly
Thanks for being a wonderful friend.
I think you made the right choice today.
I would have done the same thing.
I hope you have a better day tomorrow[:
I love you!(:

Jar of Hearts- Christina Perri:

i know, I can't take one more step towards you

                                          'Cause  all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

                                                 I learned to live, half a life
                                            And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half a life

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

    Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

                                                    And tearing love apart

  You're gonna catch a cold

   From the ice inside your soul

   So don't come back for me

      Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are? 

with love,

Kara[:

p.s.

p.s. i <3 sarah and allie(: 

Eye contact? It would be nice.

that's all i ask.

I know we won't be the same.

If you care..please.

At least answer me when i ask you a question.

or tell me to stop. 

i feel alone.

like no one is there.

the people i have talked to think i'm stupid.

i want to be happy again.

p.s.super awkward picture right?

-boo

p.s. so many people told me you care..show me? 

Blonde.

Ah. I can't believe she's back.

I screamed so loud it scared me.

No wonder she hid behind that person(: 

I missed my "blonde" so much!

I missed the smile she brings on her face everyday.

I'm so glad she's back.

Change is coming again.

I'm so excited to embrace it!

Some people are scared of change.

I used to be one of those people.

Life is far too short to live in fear.

Deep huh(; hahaha

amen!(: 

I'm at a lost of words today, and last week.

I am not much of a writer, but i bet you've figured that out already.

So, sorry for the randomness[:

I hate when people lie.

I'm trying, you are ignoring.

You make it awkward not me.

Don't blame me, please.

I still want it to work.

On a different note:

it's true[:

hehe<3

have a great day(: 

with lots of love,

KaraDiane

p.s. thanks for all those who do read all this crap(: 

Contradict much?

I am terribly sorry.
My last two post were a bit of a contradiction.
Sorry. Let's get back to happy[:














Dr. Seuss. Genius.

have a fantastic day
be happy
and ignore my last post[:

with love,
Caribou

p.s. i feel like i'm writing to thin air.
is anyone out there?

Hugs and Kisses.

Be happy.

That's pretty much my motto.

Being sad doesn't get you anywhere.

It makes you and those around you miserable. 

And if you are sad, don't show it.

The boy you like isn't going to ask what's wrong, or make you happy.

The only people that will notice is best friends and then they'll ask what's wrong?

You'll say nothing.

Because you didn't want her to ask you, you wanted him.

Pft.

It's just something I've noticed in the past, and you all know it's true.

Don't deny it[:

Being sad is SUCH a waste of time.

I know it's hard not to be sad sometimes..

but you can do it!(: 

If i can, you sooo can.

this is my screen saver[:

i agree.

jump for joy<3

i get bored after school when i don't have homework..

and listening to Skrillex.

it's pretty cool though right?(:

took me an hour.

Be happy.

-Kara:]

p.s.did i mention that i'm a 16th Cherokee Indian?

How sweet is that? very.

p.s.s.Toothpick down your shirt-not comfortable.

But he made it..good for you xc senior boy.

Good for you.

I.Love.Life.

I never thought i would say this..like..EVER.
But, it becoming true.
I love life.
It is amazing in every way possible.
I love my guy friends[:
They make me giggle, and smile. I need to smile more.
I love my girl friends also.
They are just good in general.Maybe too good for me.
I love my insane family.
Even if they are super lame some times.
I love the season that we are currently in.
Ya know, Fall?
I love listening to silly girl drama, it makes me laugh.
I love laughing. Even if it's at something really stupid.
i love hugs. You could randomly give me one if you feel like it[:
What more could I ask for??
Not a thing. Well..maybe[: 
Did i mention lots of boys are super cute and flirty? Yeah..[:



fall<3



i loooove it.



the ones in it...[:





i'll do  my best..but i can't pick out cute outfits...haha





i'm gonna have fun. are you?



i like this(:


With happiness and love,
KaraDiane



p.s. so if you can't tell i changed my blog..haha
i was going to do it all cute and junk.
But i got reaal lazy.
So it's simple.
tell me what you think(:

If you want me in your life, please start acting like it. you have no idea how close i am to giving up.

this is from her.

i had to steal it.

It's only Monday.

Kill.Me.Now.

yes.

you did promise.

i need to find this guy.

i need a life, real bad.

Maybe i'll start running.

I need to be healthier and skinnier. anyway.

have a great night.

love,

Kara

The Jacket.

Saturday.

I got a new jacket, it's fake leather.

It might be the best thing of my life.

I worked at Byu concessions.

I met a new boy.

He is super attractive.and sweet.

I got to watch the Byu game from my stand,

we could see the scoreboard *win*. 

I saw very attractive Byu football players after the game.

They are so tall..and muscular[: and so cute in their blue jumpsuits(:

He text me. It was nice..

My mommy got a calling in church today, a mia maid adviser.

I'm a mia maid.

Let's see how well it goes...haha

I had to give a mini talk in church..epic fail.

I hate hair.

so I've decided to keep it in a bun for the rest of my life.

well until it is longer...[:

Saturday was a good day.

i'm gonna live happily ever after(: 

but a Cinderella story would be nice...(:

pretty much.

he's out there...i just have to wait!(: 

have a great day[:

with lots of pretend hugs and kisses,

Caribou.

p.s.if you have a Cinderella story, please tell me the story(:

And she was yet again a brunette..

lucky you. you are the first to see.

sorry for the REALLY scary picture, i'm not photogenic. 

The hair is up..cause it looks like a lions main.

So yeah[:

It's getting better.

Not good, but better.

I think it's time that you all hear about my hole.

I've told few people about it, two to be exact.

One of which doesn't care about it, or me.

The Hole.

By:Kara Diane Rhodes

One day when Kara's parents decided to split(divorce, duh).

The hole became present in her heart.

She was only three years old, so all she thought it was, was sadness. Nothing more.

As she grew the hole filled up, with both the love of her mother, and father. She was content with life. 

When Kara entered Jr.High, Kara found out about that hole. When she had a very large crush on a silly boy, he didn't feel the same way. 

As she went through Jr. High that hole grew bigger and bigger, because of the things her parents did, her brothers did, what the government did, etc.

When Kara reached the age of 14. She met thee boy.

She was highly infatuated with him.

She had never felt this way about someone, it was just crush of course, but a very very very very BIG one.

She liked him a lot, the way he made her feel, the way he looked/winked at her(at a talent show).This "liking each other" started on March 10th, and ended on April 4th.

She was heart broken. 

He said that they should just be "Best Friends"

And they were,for a long time.

Now, remember that hole?

The reason she liked this guy so much was because, he made it fill up. She did get over him, no worries.

They had the most amazing friendship, at least she thought.

The summer of 9th grade going into 10th was...

AMAZING.

She loved it with all her heart,

they star gazed, held hands, and set world records.

She didn't think life could get any better. 

Till they entered high school.

They best friends drifted slowly.

The hole grew bigger and bigger.

Kara said stupid things.

Things she wish she could take back.

Things that made the best friends, fall apart.

Now? She doesn't know what they are.

Kara want's everything to be better.

He doesn't care.

She won't stop.

The hole remains huge.

THE END.

Great story huh?

Yeah, i thought so too.

i really am.

i'm far from perfect.

i wonder how many times i have to say it.

yet, you don't care at all? after everything 

you said, and did? I don't understand. 

-Caribou[:

p.s.I am truly sorry, forgive me?