A few words.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Words were spoken between us.
The first time in *weeks*.
Crazy.


I thought you hated me and didn't care.
You didn't want to be friends.
Then I heard this stuff:


"He really wants to be your friend...he said the only thing that is stopping him is that he think you(me) are happier not being friends and he doesn't want to hurt you(me)"-not to be named girl[:


"He said he wished you were friends again..but that he hadn't tried too much"-a different girl.


Um let me clear this up.
I was so much happier when we were friends.
I'm just a good actress so i can act happy..


*My day got better when I walked threw those seminary building doors and saw both of you waiting for me.


Even if it was only for a brief moment, it felt like nothing had changed. I miss that so much.
I hope all this stuff I am hearing is true, that he does want it too.I hope he is reading this too. Or I'm talking nonsense to all of you. Sorry[: 







i promise, i am trying. 









heading toward here[: if you come with me it will be *true*.




Does someone have a boy story for me?
I'd sure love to hear it[:


With hugs & kisses,
Kara(:








p.s. I was deemed a new nickname the other day...Mexican...hahahaha[:

If you want me in your life, please start acting like it. you have no idea how close i am to giving up.

this is from her.

i had to steal it.

It's only Monday.

Kill.Me.Now.

yes.

you did promise.

i need to find this guy.

i need a life, real bad.

Maybe i'll start running.

I need to be healthier and skinnier. anyway.

have a great night.

love,

Kara

Two year old.

Alright.
I'm so sick of being so sad.
It's so lame.
Happy girls are pretty girls..right?[:
I got a lot of complements on my hair today.Even boys. *gasp*.
That made me happy.
My Mattie left me cranberries for lunch, also made me happy.
My Jo told me i was cute, made me happy too.
My Sarah ran and hugged me today, guess what? It made me happy.

yep. i like this a lot[:

awe. i need to be happy.

when you wish upon a star...makes no difference who you are.


 

huh something to think about..?






Let's all be happy now.
Okay?[:
have a marvelous day!
with love,
Caribou Rhodes.

And she was yet again a brunette..

lucky you. you are the first to see.

sorry for the REALLY scary picture, i'm not photogenic. 

The hair is up..cause it looks like a lions main.

So yeah[:

It's getting better.

Not good, but better.

I think it's time that you all hear about my hole.

I've told few people about it, two to be exact.

One of which doesn't care about it, or me.

The Hole.

By:Kara Diane Rhodes

One day when Kara's parents decided to split(divorce, duh).

The hole became present in her heart.

She was only three years old, so all she thought it was, was sadness. Nothing more.

As she grew the hole filled up, with both the love of her mother, and father. She was content with life. 

When Kara entered Jr.High, Kara found out about that hole. When she had a very large crush on a silly boy, he didn't feel the same way. 

As she went through Jr. High that hole grew bigger and bigger, because of the things her parents did, her brothers did, what the government did, etc.

When Kara reached the age of 14. She met thee boy.

She was highly infatuated with him.

She had never felt this way about someone, it was just crush of course, but a very very very very BIG one.

She liked him a lot, the way he made her feel, the way he looked/winked at her(at a talent show).This "liking each other" started on March 10th, and ended on April 4th.

She was heart broken. 

He said that they should just be "Best Friends"

And they were,for a long time.

Now, remember that hole?

The reason she liked this guy so much was because, he made it fill up. She did get over him, no worries.

They had the most amazing friendship, at least she thought.

The summer of 9th grade going into 10th was...

AMAZING.

She loved it with all her heart,

they star gazed, held hands, and set world records.

She didn't think life could get any better. 

Till they entered high school.

They best friends drifted slowly.

The hole grew bigger and bigger.

Kara said stupid things.

Things she wish she could take back.

Things that made the best friends, fall apart.

Now? She doesn't know what they are.

Kara want's everything to be better.

He doesn't care.

She won't stop.

The hole remains huge.

THE END.

Great story huh?

Yeah, i thought so too.

i really am.

i'm far from perfect.

i wonder how many times i have to say it.

yet, you don't care at all? after everything 

you said, and did? I don't understand. 

-Caribou[:

p.s.I am truly sorry, forgive me?

Come on, Get happy.

Today i was informed that this blog is a bit depressing.

I am so sorry about that.It'll pass. I hope.

Guess what?

It RAINED today.I enjoy the rain a lot.

 i enjoy the rain, a lot.

even in a t-shirt and spankies.

Please excuse the scariness, that is me.

I had a..better day today. He spoke one word to me. Fantastic right? I had to leave seminary to cry. Yeah. Awesome. I really hate being all dramatic, and sad.It's just not me! I wish it didn't have to be like this. I want it all to go back to normal. That would be groovy.I know for a fact(by his word to a friend) That it has to happen on it's own. I hope that time will go quickly..very quickly. 

You know what i hate immensely? 

When someone says they talk to a certain person, and yet they can't tell you?

Well if you can't tell me why in the hell did you mention it!?

that bugs me.

But what'er, no one cares about how i feel. It's fine. 

[: i won't let that bring me down.maybe.

I'm super duper excited to play with new friends this weekend!

sorry i had to steal it[:Baileythehottie.

Tomorrow i get my hair dyed again<3 finally!

have a great night.

with more love than imaginable,

Kara Diane Rhodes[: 

p.s.

(:<3 

I over analyze everything.

silly me.

please forgive me. 

you know who you are..

If you ever need help with a problem talk to your Mommy.

She's really smart.

I love her a lot.  

i will be happy.

even if everything is telling me not to be.

even when you have stupid metal along your teeth[: 

have a fantastic day!

with more love than imaginable,

Kara Diane Rhodes[: