Confused.

I am so confused, it's ridiculous. 
Why do you tell them one thing and me another?
Who are you lying to? Me? Or them?


MINI NOTES:
Ginger(:
I love you doll.
Don't forget it.
Talking today was kind of like old times ya?
Good. Right?

"Babies"
I hope you're doing alright.
I'm sorry about all the crap you're going through.
It sucks, if you ever need some one to talk to. i'm here.
I love you(:


Babe-ly
Thanks for being a wonderful friend.
I think you made the right choice today.
I would have done the same thing.
I hope you have a better day tomorrow[:
I love you!(:

Jar of Hearts- Christina Perri:

i know, I can't take one more step towards you

                                          'Cause  all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

                                                 I learned to live, half a life
                                            And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half a life

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

    Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

                                                    And tearing love apart

  You're gonna catch a cold

   From the ice inside your soul

   So don't come back for me

      Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are? 

with love,

Kara[:

p.s.

p.s. i <3 sarah and allie(: 

Dreams.

I never dream.
When i do, it's either really weird.
Or i miss someone terribly. 
Now I've missed someone terribly a total of twice in my life
(well that i remember).
Once, when my best friend Jackson left for a week during summer.
I had a dream that he cam home, luckily it was just one day till i got to see him(:


The second time just happened...  
and i'm writing about it before i loose the memory.
We.talked.
We. hugged.
I said sorry.
You forgave me.
The End.Stupid doorbell..
I have never had a dream this real in my life.
I could feel the hug, i could feel the sincerity in his voice. 


I know, you have already forgiven me. 
You know how hard a time i have believing things. 
I know you simply, don't care anymore.
I wish you did. 


On a happier note.
A great friend today said "Kara you didn't text me back".
HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME THIS WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR.
Oh that boy...He was the first "holder of my hands". In the weirdest way possible. HAHA<sorry(:


Also, a very "popular" attractive boy said my hair looks good brown. win.
I was shocked he even knew my name.


Mattie sent me a video of her playing a song on the harp.
It was beautiful.
Thanks love. 


A kid in my physics class(that i sit next to), told me that he thought i was a senior.
Bahahahhahaha. It was awesome. He is a junior. Sadly, he's not cute.


I GOT YUMMY TASTING LIP GLOSS. 
It tastes like those suckers with the green..and the caramel on it!?Ah[: i love it. Does anyone want a taste?Obviously boys.Cute ones maybe?
this is it(:


I got a 91/100 on my geometry test i thought i failed.
awesome. 


did i ever tell ya'll that i am Cinderella[:


Well, have a great friday everyone[:
I hope it's full of adventures.
I hope mine is too!


with lots of love,
kara diane rhodes




p.s. in that dream, did i mention that he was wearing a leather jacket? huh..random..but oh so attractive. 
boys, go get yourself a leather jacket, the are sexy. 
<3

And she was yet again a brunette..

lucky you. you are the first to see.

sorry for the REALLY scary picture, i'm not photogenic. 

The hair is up..cause it looks like a lions main.

So yeah[:

It's getting better.

Not good, but better.

I think it's time that you all hear about my hole.

I've told few people about it, two to be exact.

One of which doesn't care about it, or me.

The Hole.

By:Kara Diane Rhodes

One day when Kara's parents decided to split(divorce, duh).

The hole became present in her heart.

She was only three years old, so all she thought it was, was sadness. Nothing more.

As she grew the hole filled up, with both the love of her mother, and father. She was content with life. 

When Kara entered Jr.High, Kara found out about that hole. When she had a very large crush on a silly boy, he didn't feel the same way. 

As she went through Jr. High that hole grew bigger and bigger, because of the things her parents did, her brothers did, what the government did, etc.

When Kara reached the age of 14. She met thee boy.

She was highly infatuated with him.

She had never felt this way about someone, it was just crush of course, but a very very very very BIG one.

She liked him a lot, the way he made her feel, the way he looked/winked at her(at a talent show).This "liking each other" started on March 10th, and ended on April 4th.

She was heart broken. 

He said that they should just be "Best Friends"

And they were,for a long time.

Now, remember that hole?

The reason she liked this guy so much was because, he made it fill up. She did get over him, no worries.

They had the most amazing friendship, at least she thought.

The summer of 9th grade going into 10th was...

AMAZING.

She loved it with all her heart,

they star gazed, held hands, and set world records.

She didn't think life could get any better. 

Till they entered high school.

They best friends drifted slowly.

The hole grew bigger and bigger.

Kara said stupid things.

Things she wish she could take back.

Things that made the best friends, fall apart.

Now? She doesn't know what they are.

Kara want's everything to be better.

He doesn't care.

She won't stop.

The hole remains huge.

THE END.

Great story huh?

Yeah, i thought so too.

i really am.

i'm far from perfect.

i wonder how many times i have to say it.

yet, you don't care at all? after everything 

you said, and did? I don't understand. 

-Caribou[:

p.s.I am truly sorry, forgive me?

Come on, Get happy.

Today i was informed that this blog is a bit depressing.

I am so sorry about that.It'll pass. I hope.

Guess what?

It RAINED today.I enjoy the rain a lot.

 i enjoy the rain, a lot.

even in a t-shirt and spankies.

Please excuse the scariness, that is me.

I had a..better day today. He spoke one word to me. Fantastic right? I had to leave seminary to cry. Yeah. Awesome. I really hate being all dramatic, and sad.It's just not me! I wish it didn't have to be like this. I want it all to go back to normal. That would be groovy.I know for a fact(by his word to a friend) That it has to happen on it's own. I hope that time will go quickly..very quickly. 

You know what i hate immensely? 

When someone says they talk to a certain person, and yet they can't tell you?

Well if you can't tell me why in the hell did you mention it!?

that bugs me.

But what'er, no one cares about how i feel. It's fine. 

[: i won't let that bring me down.maybe.

I'm super duper excited to play with new friends this weekend!

sorry i had to steal it[:Baileythehottie.

Tomorrow i get my hair dyed again<3 finally!

have a great night.

with more love than imaginable,

Kara Diane Rhodes[: 

p.s.

(:<3 

Go..

i'm detaching.

i'm so scared.

-scaredoutofhermind Kara

p.s.I love you Bbffl[:

thanks for everything.