Uh.

I'm not sure how I feel about this.
This all seems too familiar.
I should just quit while i'm ahead.
It'll end up the same way anyway.
Why would someone go from her..to me?
She's got brains and beauty.
I've got sarcasm and not beauty.
I know it's just starting out.
But I have a feeling it will end the same way as last time.


but cut out the last part.


i just like this picture. not sure why.








Some day everything will make sense.


-boo(:

p.s. happy halloween!(:
p.s.s. it's getting better[:

6 month journey.

She is so naive.
Stop being subtle. 
I want to procure his friendship back.
I am very ineptly.
He evades my eyes, everyday.
Someone should reprimand my heart. 
I like "big" words.
and putting them into stupid sentences.




in 6 months, i hope to be happy. 


مجھے تم یاد آتی ہے.
ہم دوستوں کے دوبارہ کر سکتے ہیں؟
مجھے بہت افسوس ہے.
کیا آپ کے پاس بالکل پرواہ ہے؟
کیا ہم اس سے باہر بات کر سکتے ہیں؟
مہربانی کر کے.






with love,
Kara Diane Rhodes[:


p.s.what makes you happy?
i'd sure like to hear it. 

A few words.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Words were spoken between us.
The first time in *weeks*.
Crazy.


I thought you hated me and didn't care.
You didn't want to be friends.
Then I heard this stuff:


"He really wants to be your friend...he said the only thing that is stopping him is that he think you(me) are happier not being friends and he doesn't want to hurt you(me)"-not to be named girl[:


"He said he wished you were friends again..but that he hadn't tried too much"-a different girl.


Um let me clear this up.
I was so much happier when we were friends.
I'm just a good actress so i can act happy..


*My day got better when I walked threw those seminary building doors and saw both of you waiting for me.


Even if it was only for a brief moment, it felt like nothing had changed. I miss that so much.
I hope all this stuff I am hearing is true, that he does want it too.I hope he is reading this too. Or I'm talking nonsense to all of you. Sorry[: 







i promise, i am trying. 









heading toward here[: if you come with me it will be *true*.




Does someone have a boy story for me?
I'd sure love to hear it[:


With hugs & kisses,
Kara(:








p.s. I was deemed a new nickname the other day...Mexican...hahahaha[:

If you want me in your life, please start acting like it. you have no idea how close i am to giving up.

this is from her.

i had to steal it.

It's only Monday.

Kill.Me.Now.

yes.

you did promise.

i need to find this guy.

i need a life, real bad.

Maybe i'll start running.

I need to be healthier and skinnier. anyway.

have a great night.

love,

Kara

Last Night Was a Good Night.

I had loads of fun.

With many boys."Planned:)"

With a great girl.

With screaming.

With old friends i missed,

and new ones i met.

Today will be a good day.

I'll be working at the BYU concessions.

Yay. 5-12?

Let's see how this goes[:

i might have stolen this(:

she won't mind.

oo look what i found[:

i still have hope that everything will be 

better soon. Do you?

it's all i've got(:

My best friend showed me this once, it has

stuck with me ever sense. I'll never forget it(:

I'll always hope that we can be best friends again. 

Have a fantastic day everyone[:

with love,

Kara Diane Rhodes.

p.s. there may be a new boy..just maybe.

details to come later.

Dreams.

I never dream.
When i do, it's either really weird.
Or i miss someone terribly. 
Now I've missed someone terribly a total of twice in my life
(well that i remember).
Once, when my best friend Jackson left for a week during summer.
I had a dream that he cam home, luckily it was just one day till i got to see him(:


The second time just happened...  
and i'm writing about it before i loose the memory.
We.talked.
We. hugged.
I said sorry.
You forgave me.
The End.Stupid doorbell..
I have never had a dream this real in my life.
I could feel the hug, i could feel the sincerity in his voice. 


I know, you have already forgiven me. 
You know how hard a time i have believing things. 
I know you simply, don't care anymore.
I wish you did. 


On a happier note.
A great friend today said "Kara you didn't text me back".
HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME THIS WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR.
Oh that boy...He was the first "holder of my hands". In the weirdest way possible. HAHA<sorry(:


Also, a very "popular" attractive boy said my hair looks good brown. win.
I was shocked he even knew my name.


Mattie sent me a video of her playing a song on the harp.
It was beautiful.
Thanks love. 


A kid in my physics class(that i sit next to), told me that he thought i was a senior.
Bahahahhahaha. It was awesome. He is a junior. Sadly, he's not cute.


I GOT YUMMY TASTING LIP GLOSS. 
It tastes like those suckers with the green..and the caramel on it!?Ah[: i love it. Does anyone want a taste?Obviously boys.Cute ones maybe?
this is it(:


I got a 91/100 on my geometry test i thought i failed.
awesome. 


did i ever tell ya'll that i am Cinderella[:


Well, have a great friday everyone[:
I hope it's full of adventures.
I hope mine is too!


with lots of love,
kara diane rhodes




p.s. in that dream, did i mention that he was wearing a leather jacket? huh..random..but oh so attractive. 
boys, go get yourself a leather jacket, the are sexy. 
<3