April

Everyone needs a Connor.

He might be my favorite person ever.

A Connor is someone who can make you laugh when you feel like crying.

He is super awkward, but I love him anyway.[: 

('d')<he made that up. "kick in the face". Hahaha(:

Ever feel like you don't fit in..anywhere?

I kind of feel like that right now.

I hate crying. It's a sign of weakness.

I refuse to be weak anymore.

I wish i could run away from it all.

The "ball" is in his court.

I can't do anything about it.

-kara

p.s. what happens when all hope is lost..?

Contradict much?

I am terribly sorry.
My last two post were a bit of a contradiction.
Sorry. Let's get back to happy[:














Dr. Seuss. Genius.

have a fantastic day
be happy
and ignore my last post[:

with love,
Caribou

p.s. i feel like i'm writing to thin air.
is anyone out there?

Remember how i felt empty for so long? 

That emptiness is coming back.

I hate it. 

All I want is to be happy, is that too much to ask?

I've always been good at hiding how I feel (it's one of my many talents).

But hiding how you feel isn't a good thing.I've learned that this year.

All that hidden anger and sadness, builds up over time.

It builds a wall, keeps the old feelings in ,and keeps new ones from coming in.

I want the wall gone.

I don't know what to do.

The emptiness is creeping into my heart.

It'll take over me soon.

The hole is taking over.

I want the pain to stop.

The thing is, is that I don't know what the pain is coming from.

I just hurt.

Help? 

I don't ask this often, but pray for me? Please.

i'd cry..but the wall keeps tears from my eyes.

Does any one truly care anymore? 

-Kara

Last Night Was a Good Night.

I had loads of fun.

With many boys."Planned:)"

With a great girl.

With screaming.

With old friends i missed,

and new ones i met.

Today will be a good day.

I'll be working at the BYU concessions.

Yay. 5-12?

Let's see how this goes[:

i might have stolen this(:

she won't mind.

oo look what i found[:

i still have hope that everything will be 

better soon. Do you?

it's all i've got(:

My best friend showed me this once, it has

stuck with me ever sense. I'll never forget it(:

I'll always hope that we can be best friends again. 

Have a fantastic day everyone[:

with love,

Kara Diane Rhodes.

p.s. there may be a new boy..just maybe.

details to come later.

Dreams.

I never dream.
When i do, it's either really weird.
Or i miss someone terribly. 
Now I've missed someone terribly a total of twice in my life
(well that i remember).
Once, when my best friend Jackson left for a week during summer.
I had a dream that he cam home, luckily it was just one day till i got to see him(:


The second time just happened...  
and i'm writing about it before i loose the memory.
We.talked.
We. hugged.
I said sorry.
You forgave me.
The End.Stupid doorbell..
I have never had a dream this real in my life.
I could feel the hug, i could feel the sincerity in his voice. 


I know, you have already forgiven me. 
You know how hard a time i have believing things. 
I know you simply, don't care anymore.
I wish you did. 


On a happier note.
A great friend today said "Kara you didn't text me back".
HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME THIS WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR.
Oh that boy...He was the first "holder of my hands". In the weirdest way possible. HAHA<sorry(:


Also, a very "popular" attractive boy said my hair looks good brown. win.
I was shocked he even knew my name.


Mattie sent me a video of her playing a song on the harp.
It was beautiful.
Thanks love. 


A kid in my physics class(that i sit next to), told me that he thought i was a senior.
Bahahahhahaha. It was awesome. He is a junior. Sadly, he's not cute.


I GOT YUMMY TASTING LIP GLOSS. 
It tastes like those suckers with the green..and the caramel on it!?Ah[: i love it. Does anyone want a taste?Obviously boys.Cute ones maybe?
this is it(:


I got a 91/100 on my geometry test i thought i failed.
awesome. 


did i ever tell ya'll that i am Cinderella[:


Well, have a great friday everyone[:
I hope it's full of adventures.
I hope mine is too!


with lots of love,
kara diane rhodes




p.s. in that dream, did i mention that he was wearing a leather jacket? huh..random..but oh so attractive. 
boys, go get yourself a leather jacket, the are sexy. 
<3

Come on, Get happy.

Today i was informed that this blog is a bit depressing.

I am so sorry about that.It'll pass. I hope.

Guess what?

It RAINED today.I enjoy the rain a lot.

 i enjoy the rain, a lot.

even in a t-shirt and spankies.

Please excuse the scariness, that is me.

I had a..better day today. He spoke one word to me. Fantastic right? I had to leave seminary to cry. Yeah. Awesome. I really hate being all dramatic, and sad.It's just not me! I wish it didn't have to be like this. I want it all to go back to normal. That would be groovy.I know for a fact(by his word to a friend) That it has to happen on it's own. I hope that time will go quickly..very quickly. 

You know what i hate immensely? 

When someone says they talk to a certain person, and yet they can't tell you?

Well if you can't tell me why in the hell did you mention it!?

that bugs me.

But what'er, no one cares about how i feel. It's fine. 

[: i won't let that bring me down.maybe.

I'm super duper excited to play with new friends this weekend!

sorry i had to steal it[:Baileythehottie.

Tomorrow i get my hair dyed again<3 finally!

have a great night.

with more love than imaginable,

Kara Diane Rhodes[: 

p.s.

(:<3