It's all in the moment.

Tonight I realized somethings.

One:

I start to like someone, in the moment.

It's kind of difficult to explain.

In the moment with a person, I think "hey maybe I do like him".

But I have those moments far to much. So, I think I like someone.

But I really don't. Make sense? Or maybe I just liked being with them at that moment?

I have no idea. It's a real problem. 

Two:

I'm so utterly confused.

It's a bit ridiculous.

I am doing my best, thinking of the right things to say.

But it always comes out wrong, or desperate. 

You say one thing..but mean another.

How can you be friends, but not talk? Really though.

It makes no sense. I've been thinking about it for ever.

Help me understand? Cool.

Three:

I love my life.

I love my friends.

I love my dear mother.

I even kinda like boys.

Weird right?

I just needed to step back, and look at what i have.

Four:

You should never loose hope.

Ever. 

Never forget your blessings in life.

Stay strong and radiate love.

Smile and laugh a lot, it eases the pain.

<3

with smiles, 

Karaboo[: 

P.s.

thanks for the great party gingi(:

i <3 ya! 

A few words.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Words were spoken between us.
The first time in *weeks*.
Crazy.


I thought you hated me and didn't care.
You didn't want to be friends.
Then I heard this stuff:


"He really wants to be your friend...he said the only thing that is stopping him is that he think you(me) are happier not being friends and he doesn't want to hurt you(me)"-not to be named girl[:


"He said he wished you were friends again..but that he hadn't tried too much"-a different girl.


Um let me clear this up.
I was so much happier when we were friends.
I'm just a good actress so i can act happy..


*My day got better when I walked threw those seminary building doors and saw both of you waiting for me.


Even if it was only for a brief moment, it felt like nothing had changed. I miss that so much.
I hope all this stuff I am hearing is true, that he does want it too.I hope he is reading this too. Or I'm talking nonsense to all of you. Sorry[: 







i promise, i am trying. 









heading toward here[: if you come with me it will be *true*.




Does someone have a boy story for me?
I'd sure love to hear it[:


With hugs & kisses,
Kara(:








p.s. I was deemed a new nickname the other day...Mexican...hahahaha[:

Blonde.

Ah. I can't believe she's back.

I screamed so loud it scared me.

No wonder she hid behind that person(: 

I missed my "blonde" so much!

I missed the smile she brings on her face everyday.

I'm so glad she's back.

Change is coming again.

I'm so excited to embrace it!

Some people are scared of change.

I used to be one of those people.

Life is far too short to live in fear.

Deep huh(; hahaha

amen!(: 

I'm at a lost of words today, and last week.

I am not much of a writer, but i bet you've figured that out already.

So, sorry for the randomness[:

I hate when people lie.

I'm trying, you are ignoring.

You make it awkward not me.

Don't blame me, please.

I still want it to work.

On a different note:

it's true[:

hehe<3

have a great day(: 

with lots of love,

KaraDiane

p.s. thanks for all those who do read all this crap(: