Optimistic

I'm so happy. Even though I was resistant toward giving that talk, I am happy I did. It was nerve-racking and it was three minutes instead of five. Thank you Bro.Beeson for asking me to give that talk. I needed to be reminded of what I have. All the things I should be happy about, instead of the one that makes me sad. I must stay optimistic.

I love my friends so so much. They lift me up, instead of bringing me down. I loved the way this boy smelled last night. Also, his new rad hair. Or the way he said "come here". I also love the thought of this senior and how he thinks I'm cute. I even sort of love the way my neck hurts. Plus, it's really funny when people try to make you jealous.

Now for a few notes:

Dear "Jane",
Hello dear. I'm sorry I've been distant. I want to figure myself out. I have to build some self confidence. It has been brought down a few times, if you understand. I still love you.  I feel self conscious and vulnerable. You know how I am. My silly brain doesn't work right. It's not you and you know that. Don't blame it on yourself, or I will smack you. Anyway, we will play after girls camp okay?
I love you(:

Dear Bucky,
I can't explain my love for you. You have always been there and always will be. We have so much fun together. We understand each other, and do our to not bring each other down. You're the best friend I could ask for. Thanks for listening to me ramble about stupid freaking boys(: LOVE YOUR GUTS.

Dear Sawah and Tally,
Thanks for being my friends. You guys are the best. I love that we have grown so close in such a short time. Let's be friends forever(cause we aren't getting married and all). I'm so excited for the rest of the summer and the adventures we will have. It really means a lot to me that you have befriended my silly face. Thank you so so so much. I really needed friends like you two(: I love you.

until girls camp is over,
Kara Diane Rhodes