Sometimes,When,Words.

Sometimes I wish I was able to cry, let it all out.
Something always keeps me from crying.
I don't know if it's because I'm strong or just really good at faking.
My heart aches for...I honestly don't know what I want.


I think I know what I want when he is holding my hand.
When his arm's around me. When I see his smile.
When I miss him so much I hunch over in pain. When I don't
want to speak to anyone at all. When I think of what could happen.
When I think everything can work out. I'm torn.
Then I take a step back, and I don't know.

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I know I'm making this into way too big of a deal, then it really is.
But how can I push all these feelings aside? They are overwhelming.
I can't stop thinking about them even for a second.
My mind is full of words that were said, what word I wish I could have said.
The words I want to hear. The words I regret.
I don't know what to do.


Will I end up happy?

-Kara